Day ???

I kind of lost track of what day of my project it is, however I jumped the gun and came out to my parents. I think it’s gonna take them a while to adjust, but I’m very happy I did it. They didn’t say anything negative, to be honest, they didn’t really say much. Words cannot describe how relieved I feel. It is such a great feeling.

I guess I reached the ultimate goal of my project- to muster enough courage to come out. I might not blog much anymore since I don’t feel the need to vent about things anymore. I will keep this blog open and write ocassionally in case I can help anyone out there reading this.

This is my tumblr in case you want to see my art
Also Instagram

Lastly, I met someone…well, I met her a long time ago (a year ago), but it is the first time I’ve wanted to talk about her. She’s amazing, we clicked instantly, we snapchat, message and skype incessantly. We’ve even helped each other come out. There’s only one little problem…she lives 7,000 km away from me. In Australia to be exact.
If she’s from Australia and I’m on this side of the world…does that make me Ellen?
Anyway, I’m hoping to meet her someday

*Cue hopeful romantic music*
I’m off to go skateboarding

Love and Peace,

Andrea

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Day 73


This ad hit me like a ton of bricks. It is completely eye opening. I really love it when something so strong can be conveyed so clearly in less than two mintues.

Can we air this in Mexico? Right between the 4 and 5 pm telenovelas.
Seriously though, indifference does a lot more damage than expected, so please, if you’re reading this, promise me you will do something about social injustice.

I’m going to start blogging with my real name now, because in the past few days I’ve realized that there are very few Latino LGBT role models. Not that I’m expecting to be one, but I figured if someone from a remote place in Central America reads this, I want to show that it’s ok to be yourself and that you shouldn’t feel the need to hide who you are.

YA BASTA DE LA INDIFERENCIA

Love and Peace,

Andrea

Day 70

I found an old notebook today. It was my English notebook from my senior year of highschool. In it, I wrote down 52 reasons I should’ve know I was gay. I’ll share one now.

Reason #21:

If you’re latin, then you know about quinceañera parties. That dreaded, (not by everyone) almost archaic tradition that every 15 year old girl has to go through. It’s kind of like a Mexican version of a prom and a sweet sixteen mashed together.

Most girls dress in poofy pastel colored dress, dance waltz with their father, and then some kind of modern dance with their “chambelanes” (pubescent boys who escort you during your party), but I…I took the money for the party and used to buy a ticket to Domincan Republic to go see my also gay best friend. I mentioned her in Day 2.

Love and Peace,

Ellen

Day 69

Self acceptance is really important. It took me a very long time to learn just how important it is. Even now, at 20 years old, I have days where I just don’t like the way I am. Today I’m feeling good, today I’m learning to love myself. Here are a few videos I found that truly capture how important not only self acceptance is but also just acceptance.

1. Hornbach “Sag est min deinim Projekt”

It’s a short advertisement for Hornbach, a German DIY store. Rarely does an ad capture such messages so well. I was very impressed.

2. HollySiz- The light

HollySiz is a French musician. Her video manages to convey how hard it can be to express yourself and also how cruel kids and adults can be. The important message here is that there is nothing wrong with expressing yourself, and that a parent’s acceptance of their child is of utmost importance to their well-being.
3. Bad Suns- Salt

Bad Suns is an American Band from California. This video was directed by Daniel Campos, a choreographer and ex back up dancer for Madonna and Shakira. He also appears in Shakira’s “Did It Again”. I love his work. The actress in the video is his wife-also a very talented dancer. Anyway, this video really got to me since the first time I watched it. The message is pretty clear. I will be doing my own version of this video soon, but instead of a transwoman, I will be appearing as a transman.

4. Ruby Rose- Break Free

Ruby Rose is an Australian model, DJ, actress, amongst other awesome things. She will be appearing in Orange is the New Black season 3- CAN’T WAIT! I love her portrayal of gender identity in this video. She really is a huge inspiration.

I guess this post combines self acceptance with transformation. Come to think of it, self acceptance doesn’t come without transformation.

Love and  Peace,
Ellen

Day 60

I got the best advice from one of my friends today.
I was freaking about life, as per usual, and she gave me the weirdest analogy to calm me down but it actually made sense.

She said:

Your degree is like your baby.
I know, I know, wtf, right? but it’s true.
It takes like 9 semesters to get it (9 months)
You suffer through it and you throw up a lot…for very different reasons though.
But in the end, when you’re up there holding your degree/baby you’re fucking glad you did it anyway. And for the rest of your life, you’ll be glad you went through those 9 semesters because you built a whole life around it. So yeah dude, just suffer through it.

 

My degree is my baby and I’m in my first trimester. At least I get to drink

 

Day 38

50 shades of HELL NO
What is it with this book (and now film) that has got women all over the world crazed?
Most of the women in my building were going crazy over how sexy and ROMANTIC the movie was.
I think Anna is just in an abusive relationship with Christian, blinded by the hope that Christian can be “fixed”.
I think it’s a little dangerous for women to fantasize about being in this sort of relationship because I don’t think love, infatuation, or attraction justifies an abusive relationship.

I do have to thank 50 shades of Grey though; If it weren’t for that movie, Ellen would have never made this masterpiece:

Day 32

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.
First of all, my apologies to my readers…if I have any regular readers.

It was my birthday this weekend and the girls from my building threw me a surprise party. It was amazing, they took me to an arcade because I felt “old” and nothing says young like pizza, laser tag and go karts :).

I also came out to my best friend here. Let me tell you, right before I said the words: “I’m gay” I was a tangle of fear, nervousness, and doubt- however, 1.3 seconds later I was a bundle of joy, happiness, and emotion. My best friend was thankfully fine with it and so far nothing seems different. I never thought that two  words which are so simple could make me feel so liberated. I want to help other people feel the same way.

A year from now, I will be seated in front of my parents pronouncing those same two words. I really hope those words will have the same sweet taste as they nervously roll of my tongue a year from now.

Love and Peace,

Ellen